Well, I think I'm finally over this weird funk that's been affecting me the past several days. Wow, I'm not one to be depressed or mopey, so this bizarre mood I've been in totally threw me for a loop. The thing is, I can't figure out what was the cause of it. Though I will say it gave me a whole new appreciation for people who battle depression on a regular basis. I cannot imagine what they must go through. It can definitely take you to some dark places, ones I've never been to before, which is pretty scary. However I'm past it now, so I'm not going to dwell on it. I'm just glad it's over. Thank you to everyone who offered their kind thoughts. They meant a lot. You guys are the best :)
Last night I met a friend for dinner at the Cheesecake Factory and then we went to see the Beyonce movie "Obsessed". I admit I wasn't expecting much but I really liked it. Ali Larter definitely has the handle on playing a pyscho bitch, and Beyonce easily managed to hold her own, despite my initial reservations about her. I'd not seen her acting before, so this was a surprising treat. And I loved that her character didn't just sit back and take it. Beyonce got mega applause from moviegoers, let me tell ya. And despite the lackluster reviews, I found this movie to be entertaining and wicked fun. Ali Larter is bad, bad, bad, though thank God not Fatal Attraction bad, and I bet she had fun playing this role.
And, I cannot neglect to mention Idris Elba. Wow. I don't recall seeing him before, though he's been in several movies (American Gangster, which I saw) and I guess he made an appearance on The Office, which I periodically watch. Anyway, I think he did an amazing job of portraying a successful business man who, though happily married with a son, isn't immune to the attractiveness of other women. At times his character pushed the limits, almost crossing a line, but always reeling himself in just in time. Good thing Beyonce's character was a strong woman, because he needed someone like that. Idris definitely has charisma, and I definitely think he's gorgeous, so I'll be looking for him in other movies. I might have to re-watch American Gangster to identify his character this time. Where the heck was I when he was onscene???
Another issue that I've been thinking a whole lot about this week concerns "nice vs. not nice" blogs. I've debated saying anything because I really have nothing to add to the topic, other than to just express my personal feelings on the whole matter. And also because I do happen to consider myself a friend of one of the bloggers in question. I guess I'm taking this opportunity to make myself feel better, and as a typical Libra (yeah I'm blaming my zodiac sign cuz that's such a mature thing to do), I hate taking sides. Then after much internal dialogue, I came to the conclusion that I don't need to take sides. This is not a war, or even a baseball game between the Cubs and the White Sox. (I don't have a favorite team here either). How silly of me to think otherwise.
Bottom line is, when it comes right down to it, you support your friends, even when they make partial or even complete asses of themselves. I can't say that I agree with everything that was said recently by one of the bloggers in question, because I definitely do not. In fact I was rather riled up by a portion of her speech, however that's another story not worth getting into, other than to say I am tired of this issue being dragged up yet again. Let it die in peace. And no, this is not a case of "can't we all just get along?" because I think that's a totally unrealistic expectation. I don't like everybody, so why should anyone else? I make no apologies for who/what I do like either. Which is why I don't believe I need to make a choice between visiting her blog or the blogs of other, so-called "not nice" administrators.
AND I completely subscribe to the opinion that if you are truly genuine, nice, intelligent, funny, cool, charming, or whatever, you don't have to tell people that you are. It shines through without having to announce it to the world. Just sayin'.
I do visit these so-called "not nice" blogs, not everyday, but frequently. I rarely post, though not because I'm afraid to comment, but more because most of them are a lot smarter and way more eloquent than I am, and have visitors that are just as smart, funny and perceptive as they are and tend to say it much better than I. Several of my RL blogger friends already know this about me. I'm not stupid, I'm just not very good at expressing myself.
So when I do visit these "not nice" blogs, I have varying opinions on the subject matter. Sometimes I don't agree, and other times I find the blog topics unnecessary or not to be my interest. Then there are even other times I'll read a really thought-provoking, relevant post that has me questioning my current opinions, or wanting to learn more about a topic they're discussing. In the interest of full disclosure and yes, fairness, I have to come clean and admit I've been critical of these blogs in the past, even more recently, and I haven't always liked the direction that some of the posts have gone, but when I really think about it, I recognize that some of these bloggers have put the romance community on the map, and shed a rather refreshing, fiesty, and yes, at times, a positive light on the readers and writers in this industry. Forging a path is not necessarily done with sweetness and light.
But I gotta say that the so-called "nice" blogs have their purpose as well. They can be fun, light-hearted, positive, embracing and close-knit. Most of the time you're not going to run across regular intellectual discussions about the state of the romance industry, but rather posts about celebrating the shiny, happy romance community. Or seeing us acting like naughty school girls when we discuss various sexual positions we've read about in our favorite books. Rather juvenile behavior, but so what? Nothing wrong with being silly. With the economy, swine flu, horrible conditions of the roads and all those potholes, fear of losing jobs and the sad state of school systems, you need to find somewhere to put aside all those day-to-day worries. It's not always serious and mature, but you know, not everyone feels comfortable discussing sex or love with their RL friends, especially if said friends don't read romance. We celebrate our sexuality and enjoy the freedom to talk about it with like-minded individuals. I admit I was a bit amused to read some comments at one of the nice blogs, saying how creepy our little group was. Yeah, we're complete freaks. And I am only speaking for myself here, but I don't take it too seriously. After all, blogging is only a small part of what I do during the day, and it's not even everyday. And I visit a variety of blogs - readers, writers, group, industry, etc. They all give me something of what I need, but not one of them gives me everything. It's why I blog-hop, which takes up maybe 15-20% of my day. Well, unless it's really slow at work.
So I am not choosing sides, and yeah I am selfish and I want it all. I'm not one of the popular kids and I never will be, but I do like to think I can mingle with both sides freely, and enjoy the benefits I get out of it. If anyone actually reads this, they will probably think I'm riding the fence, and that's fine. I am. I see no real purpose for me not to. I've never seen the world in black and white, but lots of gray, soft, muted, harsh, ugly. Some days I like the gentler tones, and others a stark, unforgiving one works best.
So in summary, I'm totally taking the easy way out here and not going on the attack. I don't feel compelled to draw out my poisonous sword for this particular battle. Now if you were to insult cover model Nathan Kamp, then I might have to get nasty *g*
And now I think I'm going to go watch the first season of Carnivale (another selection from my blogger recommendation list). Enjoy the rest of your weekend :)
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